Getting better, still not 100%


I must say I’ve had the life scared out of me a few times this week.  High fevers. Cold, cold chills. Large, scary lump in my leg.  Lump growing quickly.  Dizziness. Tightness in chest. Shortness of breath.  More fevers.  Sad thing is, I didn’t know it wasn’t a bad Fibromyalgia attack until day 5 when I found the lump and went to Urgent Care and the ER in one day.  Now my poor boyfriend has it too and calls the pain a 9 on a scale of 1-10.  He now has a new respect for my bad days.

Thankfully, it was all viral except the lump and while I am told to expect several more days of illness, I do see light at the end of the tunnel now.  The lump (Lymphadenopathy) is essentially like a bad case of tonsillitis (severely enlarged lymph nodes) only in my leg.  The swelling is going down dramatically today (technically Saturday since I basically slept through the whole day), which is great since I was in the ER for the third time this week with it growing only Thursday.

I’m sorry for the drastic delay.  I never thought I’d be so tired and sick that I couldn’t even read for lack of energy, but I totally was.  My phone was my only entertainment, most of the time I was awake, which wasn’t much.

I missed a mid-term and an entire week of classes.  I’m sure I’m dropping one, if not two.  I just feel I’m missing what I want to be doing for school now and …. since what I want to be doing doesn’t require a degree, why not take it a bit slower?  One class at a time leaves me plenty of time to do what I want and still gets me an education, albeit a bit slower).  My body has definitely told me in no uncertain terms it’s time to slow down, so….

I’ll be back at it in a week or so!! 😀  See you soon!!!

5 Reasons Kitties and Computers Don’t Mix


I am the proud pet of 8 wonderful kitties (well 10, temporarily).  All of the below have actually happened to me except the first, which happened to an acquaintance of mine, so I thought I’d share the wonderful joys of mixing kitties and computers:
1)  Laptops are warm and if given left alone, soon kitty will curl up on top to sleep and:


2)  Kitties LOVE to walk on keyboards… to this day I still don’t know why my keyboard sounds a tone every time certain keys are pressed.  I haven’t been able to find a setting anywhere, but at least I know when they turn on my caps lock now!
3)  Kitties like to chase little mice, even when they are on a computer screen.  then they start pawing at said computer screen, leaving wonderful scratch marks
4) It’s always lovely sitting down to your computer and seeing snot bubbles all over your computer screen…aw man who sneezed on my screen this time?!?
5) Last but not least…NEVER turn around to play with the dog when there is a cat on your desk.  No kidding, Artemis went to sleep on my keyboard. I looked up and had a message on Facebook telling me I’d left too many comments and was banned from commenting with a link for more information.  I clicked through the error only to find the comments on my friend’s status looked something like:

aofkjiodfas
kjds
1
1
1
1
1
1
1
and so on.  My cat left over TWO HUNDRED comments on my friend’s status in about two minutes.  The poor girl had set her Facebook to text the comments to her.  I believe it was over thirty minutes later when she told me her phone finally stopped going off.  So glad she didn’t pay per text!
Also, the language on the ban was very indefinite.  Banned for at least 24 hours, but could be longer, however if you attempt to comment in the meantime, your ban will be extended.  Please be patient until the ban lifts.  Well…how the heck do you know when it’s lifted?  I didn’t get any notification, I just kept trying about every 6 hours after I got up the next day.  It was about 26 hours before I could comment again.

What experiences have you had with animals and computers?

Crystal Blue – with cool new history!!


I wrote this for a former teacher of mine while looking at, and inspired by, a picture of an eagle.  I’m re-posting today because after I showed her the poem, she showed me this picture….

Crystal Blue, the aforementioned teacher, took this picture the DAY BEFORE I was randomly inspired to write this poem about her while staring at an eagle picture  in my bedroom!!!  How cool is that!  I couldn’t think of anything to write that night and just scribbled a bit with my eyes closed. When I opened them, my eyes focused on the eagle picture in my room. I let my eyes go soft and continued to scribble, and soon the poem just came to me.

Has anything like this happened to you?  Let me know in the comments below

The Eagle soars as Eagles do
‘Neath a sky of Crystal Blue,
And the Wolf whose mournful howls
Are no match for feral growls
Oh the Kitties how they pounce
How they tumble, how they bounce,
See the Ravens crow and dither
As they fly both yon and hither.
All of these can e’er be found
If you only look around.

Moving soon, I hope—SO tired


I have my own domain now.  http://www.ravenmarlow.com.  After it’s up, I’ll double post everything for a month or two, but then this site will retire, probably.

I’m so tired from staring at a computer screen all day for work and then all night for homework (read all my classwork tonight for one week and part of last week’s too…Yes, I was late).  My eyes and head …and well my whole body hurts from Fibromyalgia.  The weather front moving in has me barely able to move, so instead of writing tonight I’m going to post my journal entry for last night:

Can't we all just get along??

Class today—well it sucked.  Apparently even gadgets on a desk piss off the professor, whether using them or not.  LOVE being treated like I’m 2. NOT!!  Ah well…the next class has a great professor, but I feel clueless on some things while my much younger classmates seem to already know everything. MAN I feel OLD!!  Remind me again WHY I’m in school…anybody?

I’m beginning to see it as little more than a roadblock to my writing.  Unfortunately, there are financial reasons why I really need to stay in, so stay in I will.

Besides…what if I can’t make it?  What if I never make a career in writing?  I read an article the other day that showed how a certain company is making it all but impossible for new authors to gain success.  Sure they can publish, but without a name, who’s going to buy your work?

Basically, either you already have it or you never will.  It doesn’t bode well for my reams for the future.  I really hope that article is wrong.  OR–I hope I’m the exception (long with some close friends).  I’d really LOVE more time to write and develop a fan base–even meet fans.  Besides, my day job is slowly killing me.  I really need to get out if IT!  I know…how did I go from IT to writing? That, my friends, was a very LONG journey.

Maybe someday I’ll share a bit of it.  But not today—

What are you looking for?  What are your dreams? I would love to hear them!

 

 

 

PS if anyone knows who the picture creds belong to, please let me know. I saved it years ago. Thanks bunches!

100-Word Writing Challenge


It’s time again for the 100-Word Challenge from Julia’s Place!

Please make sure you look at the original stories from the challenge as well.  See what Julia says here:

Many of you know about the 100 Word Challenge that is run from 100wc.net. It is the original 100 word project and is for children under 16. We desperately need some more folks to comment of these brilliant pieces of work. I would be really grateful if you could add a note and a link on your blogs to encourage your readers to get involved. Many thanks!”

 100-Word Writing Challenge

The prompt this week was “You bought her what”. Julia didn’t want to influence us with punctuation, so you can use the words however you like.  I have posted mine below:

 

 

“What do you mean you bought her?  What were you thinking?  The girl is obviously too young for our clients.  And I don’t want to serve that kind of client anyhow! “

“It’s not like that, dude.  Like, I had to save her!”

“Save her? What are you Jesus  f-ing Christ now? I don’t have time to mother an 8-year-old girl.”

“Dude her eyes, if you’d seen that look in her eyes.  Aw you’ll never understand.”

“Understand what?  Try me.”

“I don’t know, she had like…this dead look in her eyes, dude.  I couldn’t leave her with them.”

Indulging in Guilty Pleasures


Anita Blake rescued me from Reality TV.  Everywhere I looked, someone was living in the wilderness or eating something horrible, or BOTH!  Worse still were the cameras following celebrities to show their “exciting” lives.  One of my favorite past times suddenly made me want to pass out!

I met a new friend who read a lot during that time, and she decided I must want to read as well. I’d read all of my adult life, but never more than 2-3 books a year.  Anyhow, given the state of television, I decided to try the books she loaned me.  There were three, and it took me about 10 months to read all three of them. When I finished the third one, I wanted more.  Sure I’d read about vampires and fantasy worlds before, but never one quite like this one. The desire for more led me to the discovery of serial fiction novels.  No, I really hadn’t known much about it before.

Book Cover for Guilty Pleasures by Laurell K Hamilton

As it turned out, the book was the first in a series and there were already 8 other books in the series.  I read them all in the same amount of time it had taken me to read the first three, including another one that was released while I was reading them.  I was hooked. I had to wait 9 more months for another release in the series, and I was frothing at the mouth to read more.

The series is about an Animator, one who raises the dead in the form of a zombie for ‘legal’ reasons for a business quaintly named Animator’s, Inc.  She is also a vampire hunter.  Move over Buffy!  Actually, the first book in the series, Guilty Pleasures, was copyrighted in 1993, long before the TV series came out in 1997, but the 1992 box office bomb the TV series was based on might have also helped inspire the creator of Anita’s world of mythical creatures.

Vampires are made by other vampires.  Zombies are raised from the grave by an animator or voodoo priest.  Ghouls, as far as we know, just crawl out of the grave on their own.”  Anita Blake – page 26.

Laurell K Hamilton creates a world where vampires not only exist, but they are also legal citizens in the United States.  Anita’s jurisdiction covers several states in and around St. Louis, MO.  She kills vampires only when she is issued a warrant of execution by the state in which they reside. At least, that’s what the police think.  In Guilty Pleasures, Anita faces the decision to kill or be killed, in a matter not necessarily recognized by law, for the first time, but not the last.

The story begins with Willy McCoy, a newly turned vampire and the first vampire Anita had known as a human, tries to hire her to investigate a series of vampire killings that are very disturbing to the police and, apparently, the vampire community. Unfortunately for Anita, the beautiful Jean-Claude, second only to Nikolaos, the Master of the City, has convinced the Master, that Anita is the only person who can help them solve this mystery.  Anita turns Willy down, refusing to work for the fanged creatures.  The Master is not pleased when Anita refuses. She orders Jean-Claude to lure her to his strip club, Guilty Pleasures, in order to make her an offer she can’t refuse.  If she doesn’t investigate the murders, they will kill her good friend, Catherine. This time Anita doesn’t refuse.

By this time the story had me, but it wasn’t just the story, it was the storytelling that sucked me in.  Laurell K Hamilton uses a first person narrative to develop a strong female protagonist that I really relate to.  In many ways, I feel like I would say and do the same things if I were Anita.  Anita rambles sometimes in her thoughts, but the ramblings had fears and doubts, same insecurities that I shared.

“Everyone has their weaknesses.  Some people smoke.  I collect stuffed penguins.  If you won’t tell, I won’t.”  Anita Blake – page 80.

Sometimes, her thoughts explain her emotional connection to her gun or why she works with the people she works with.  Other times she waxes philosophic:

“You can’t save everybody.  In fact, there are days when I think you can’t save anyone.  Each person has to save himself first, then you can move in and help. I have found this philosophy does not work during a gun battle or a knife fight either. Outside of that it works just fine.” Anita Blake – page 158.

But every decision she makes is thought out before she makes it, even if her thoughts aren’t exactly logical.  I doubt I would think very logically with a vampire clouding my mind either.

“You do what we want, or I will peel away your mind like layers of an onion.” Nikolaos to Anita Blake – page 69.

I found myself living through Anita’s eyes and truly becoming Anita.  Her eyes were the window to another world where I could escape whenever I needed a break from my not-so-exciting life.  When I had read all there was to read of the Anita Blake series, I found others to read, more strong protagonists to become.  Soon I was reading 2-3 books a week when I wasn’t in school.  How did that happen?  It got to a point where someone would tell me of a really interesting movie and I would think, “I wonder if it’s based on a book”.  I loved how books had more details than movies.

Eventually, a friend asked me if I would help her write a book, and because of my (respectively) newfound love, I said yes.  I helped her for several months and helped pushed her further towards a complete outline than she’d ever been.  Before we were able to finish, however, she moved to another state and lost all her writings in a fire.  The following year I met a writer and together we came up with a very unusual concept.  We worked on this story for months, and I would help with the ideas while he did the actual writing.    A large change happened in both of our lives and he dropped offline to pursue other things.  The story churned in my mind for almost a year before I was able to contact him again.

He told me that I’d had very strong ideas on how the book should be written and that I should write the book myself.  I wasn’t happy with that idea because I was no writer.  I was a reader.  Until an emotional day when suddenly words started coming to me:

“Part of me wanted to run away screaming. But where would I go? What would I do? Who would I run to? I’d once seen the gods who created me, but only once.” –Pandora

I started writing and what do you know?  I enjoyed it!  Thanks to a love for books I’d discovered almost 10 years before with Anita Blake, I’d found a new Guilty Pleasure.

 

 

What’s your story?  What started you reading, or even writing? What was your main inspiration?    Please share, I can’t wait to read your responses!!

Can You Save the Faeries?


Here’s a little something I’m playing with.  Let me know what you think!

You’ve heard it said that when children say they don’t believe in fairies that their lights go out. But they don’t die. Oh no, they don’t die.

When a fairy’s light goes out, they become nasty dark fairies. They miss the light so much that they become very bitter.

So instead of flying around doing good things, they do mean things. They don’t want to help young children believe in themselves.

Instead they whisper dark things in their ears. They don’t tell them to be nice and share. They tell them to take things that aren’t theirs.

They no longer leave money in exchange for your tooth as a special celebration.  They prefer to take away your shiny things, just because they can.

They bully around the fairies of light and tell you to do the same to your friends.  They take their money and kick them around.  Do you know people like that?

They pull dogs ears and make them yelp so mom and dad think you hurt the family dog. Is there any end to the mean things they do?

But there is hope yes there is.  There is something YOU can do!

It’s true that every time a child says they don’t believe in fairies one of their lights goes out,

But if you believe again their lights return!

YOU can bring back the fairies of light one by one!  Share this phrase with everyone you meet:

I believe in fairies, yes I do.
I believe in fairies, do you?

Say it with me, shout it out to the world!

I believe in fairies, yes I do.
I believe in fairies, do you?

NaNoWriMo Project – Day 30 is here!


Woot!  10195 words!!  Granted not the 50k I had hoped for, but having to take that second job and getting maybe 5 hrs of sleep a night (in two 2.5 hr shifts) hurt badly.  I still consider this a HUGE victory because of working two jobs and being in school part-time, because of my lack of discipline in any other project I’ve ever taken on….besides the fact that I’ve never ever written before!!  I’m so happy I got so much done and I can’t wait to continue!!

 

I plan to take this project very seriously even now that NaNo is over.  I’ll take a week break to get past finals then pick it back up.  I’m going to try something different.  I’d like to open this up for CONSTRUCTIVE criticism.  I’m still very new and would love to know ways I can improve my writing.  Besides that, it’s time to learn HOW I will take the criticism. Will I run screaming?  Will I accept it graciously and use it productively?  Or will I do what I’m doing now and crash and burn since I’m running on only three hours of sleep?  Time will tell.

 

Blessings everyone! Thanks for reading!!!