Update on my Illness

Thankfully I was able to move up the appointment with the surgeon.  That is the good news.   The bad news is that I will be having surgery on Monday to remove the 3 cm oblong shaped lump in my groin.  The Dr. will then biopsy the lump and get back with me in 3-6 days with the results.

He also found another lump under my armpit.  He acknowledged it but didn’t say if it was cause for concern.  I was too dumbfounded to ask.  I guess right now the larger one is the main concern and if it’s clear we’ll address the other one afterwards.

I’m sorry I didn’t give many more details before.  I didn’t want to worry anyone until I knew if this was a real possibility.  I guess I know now and frankly, I’m scared out of my wits.  Thank you all for hanging in there with me through this very difficult time.


Getting better, still not 100%

I must say I’ve had the life scared out of me a few times this week.  High fevers. Cold, cold chills. Large, scary lump in my leg.  Lump growing quickly.  Dizziness. Tightness in chest. Shortness of breath.  More fevers.  Sad thing is, I didn’t know it wasn’t a bad Fibromyalgia attack until day 5 when I found the lump and went to Urgent Care and the ER in one day.  Now my poor boyfriend has it too and calls the pain a 9 on a scale of 1-10.  He now has a new respect for my bad days.

Thankfully, it was all viral except the lump and while I am told to expect several more days of illness, I do see light at the end of the tunnel now.  The lump (Lymphadenopathy) is essentially like a bad case of tonsillitis (severely enlarged lymph nodes) only in my leg.  The swelling is going down dramatically today (technically Saturday since I basically slept through the whole day), which is great since I was in the ER for the third time this week with it growing only Thursday.

I’m sorry for the drastic delay.  I never thought I’d be so tired and sick that I couldn’t even read for lack of energy, but I totally was.  My phone was my only entertainment, most of the time I was awake, which wasn’t much.

I missed a mid-term and an entire week of classes.  I’m sure I’m dropping one, if not two.  I just feel I’m missing what I want to be doing for school now and …. since what I want to be doing doesn’t require a degree, why not take it a bit slower?  One class at a time leaves me plenty of time to do what I want and still gets me an education, albeit a bit slower).  My body has definitely told me in no uncertain terms it’s time to slow down, so….

I’ll be back at it in a week or so!! 😀  See you soon!!!

Moving soon, I hope—SO tired

I have my own domain now.  http://www.ravenmarlow.com.  After it’s up, I’ll double post everything for a month or two, but then this site will retire, probably.

I’m so tired from staring at a computer screen all day for work and then all night for homework (read all my classwork tonight for one week and part of last week’s too…Yes, I was late).  My eyes and head …and well my whole body hurts from Fibromyalgia.  The weather front moving in has me barely able to move, so instead of writing tonight I’m going to post my journal entry for last night:

Can't we all just get along??

Class today—well it sucked.  Apparently even gadgets on a desk piss off the professor, whether using them or not.  LOVE being treated like I’m 2. NOT!!  Ah well…the next class has a great professor, but I feel clueless on some things while my much younger classmates seem to already know everything. MAN I feel OLD!!  Remind me again WHY I’m in school…anybody?

I’m beginning to see it as little more than a roadblock to my writing.  Unfortunately, there are financial reasons why I really need to stay in, so stay in I will.

Besides…what if I can’t make it?  What if I never make a career in writing?  I read an article the other day that showed how a certain company is making it all but impossible for new authors to gain success.  Sure they can publish, but without a name, who’s going to buy your work?

Basically, either you already have it or you never will.  It doesn’t bode well for my reams for the future.  I really hope that article is wrong.  OR–I hope I’m the exception (long with some close friends).  I’d really LOVE more time to write and develop a fan base–even meet fans.  Besides, my day job is slowly killing me.  I really need to get out if IT!  I know…how did I go from IT to writing? That, my friends, was a very LONG journey.

Maybe someday I’ll share a bit of it.  But not today—

What are you looking for?  What are your dreams? I would love to hear them!




PS if anyone knows who the picture creds belong to, please let me know. I saved it years ago. Thanks bunches!